School sucks people keep saying things about me and I had P.E and my muscles are sore I dont understand why people feel the need to make others feel beneath them thats how they make me feel i just wish I didnt have to go I hate it there and all the people just totally rag on me for no reason but to hurt my feelings because Iam not perfect I want to just go to some deserted island and be alone sometimes sigh I dont how much of this i can take till I break.

           sssh my child please dont cry Iam here for you it will be alright

        the world may feel as if its  agianst you and nothing goes right

       call on me my child and I will be there no matter what. I love you

       my child and will be there through thick and thin till tomarrow my

      child when the sun rises and everything is bright again.

 ps sorry this isnt exactly great but it was how I was feeling at the time

Today I was trying to sleep and I was about to dose off again and then I heard the door creak open and then I heard a low moan sound which made me sit up quickly not really sleepy as I was anymore after hearing that and ran down stairs I was scared shitless when I heard that I guess there is a sprite in my room Iam not sure I mean I do believe in them but I never saw one but I have had ghostly things happen to me. things have happen in in that room like sometimes I can swear you can hear footstep  at night and its not me or my sis because she is on her bed and me in mine. and then another time there was like this ball of light in the corner where my bed is and it started moving towards me so I of couse left I just cant help get scared and follow my instincts to run. my sis also said that while she was up there she was on her bed when a shadow passed it and rushed toward the window then she heard the blinds being moved like someone was looking outside man I dont know what the hell to think Iam so freakin scared of that room but I do have to admit it is very exciting who know maybe I will get to see an actual spirite if I do it will be the thrill of my lifetime.

 I dont know why we have to start school so damn early its no fair at all I dont want to go back to teachers and books and 6:00 is to early to be getting up sigh there is no way to win though because if school started early it would end late so there is noway out of school except being a dropout which I cant do cause I want to go to collage and I dont want to be working at a restruant for the rest of  my life and plus if I go and gradauat maybe my mom can be fianally proud of me thats what I want so bad is for her to be proud of me like she is of my other sibilings so thats my plan and I must finish school for it to happen I must endure the tortuer but in the end I will be happy that I did I hope.